Oops, once again I've let the holidays and the new year come without marking the season by blogging my well wishes. Take it on faith, I thought many good thoughts and I have many resolutions. More on that later. This year end, more than any other recent period, been marked by nostalgia. Last year was my 25th college reunion, and while that was pleasurable and easy (not to mention around the corner), I'm now coming up on my 30th high school reunion and it is far more enveloping, although the actual luncheon isn't until April!
You see, my school was tiny, intellectually adventurous while also filled with the hormonal haze that colors everyone's teen memories. If I was just a bit older I would have looked forward to the day with mild anticipation and pleasure, filled with curiosity about what my classmates were doing, in the modern world I don't need to wonder. For good or ill this is the internet age, and sparked by one rogue classmate, we've all suddenly found each other on Facebook and started to engage in collective reminiscence. My memories, as fragmented as they turn out to be, are fresh and new and raw once more.
This is good as I live with two girls facing their own teenage angst living in the house. It's suddenly a lot easier to remember the slights and tears and uncertainty that marked the six years of 7-12 grades and I'm a much more sympathetic listener. But revisiting the mid-70s also opens up a lot of raw emotion that's been buried for decades. I attribute my nightmare of last night (raising funds for some unknown deserving cause with the help of Tom Cruise) to this newly rediscovered emotional fragility. Tom Cruise? Things must be bad.
Yes and no. It's great to think about my classmates and teachers. In a funny way that would take too long to explain, I miss them and crave reconnecting with them. I've always understood that the six years I spent at CGPS were more intellectually important than the the years at Bryn Mawr or the University of Michigan. I've always admitted that, but because people have never heard of the school, I don't think it made much of an impression. I became who I am while I was there -- it was a pretty intense place. Jeff Toobin and John Podhoretz were in the class ahead of me, Ally Sheedy the year following. Members of my class are journalists, novelists, therapists, teachers, business people, artists. There were only 54 people in my graduating class and I know I haven't been as challenged by any group of people since. It was, despite the adolescent trauma of it all, a truly amazing place.
Enough. I need to come back to the present -- to the story I need to write before Friday at 5 pm, to the 12 sweaters I need to knit before the end of the year. Yes, foolish and delusional as I am, I signed up for NaKniSweMoDo (at least I think that's the acronym). I should be able to do it from WIPs (most of which are just at the "swatch" stage). Last year I knit 10 adult sweaters, 2 baby sweaters, 8 pairs of socks, 2 pairs of handwarmers, 1 pair of mittens and 1 neck warmer. I may have missed something in the count, but that's pretty close to all of it.
I thought taking on 12 sweaters in 2009 would be doable and a good way to get rid of stash. Imagine my surprise to discover that knitting 12 sweaters won't even dent the stash proper (stash that is not yet cast on). I can knit projects that are already in progress, meet the goal and not even open a single stash box. This is bad.
This is very bad.
I may need to go buy some yarn to calm down.
Pictures tomorrow, when I get out of the time warp that has Bruce Springsteen, Heart, Blondie, Elvis Costello, The Steve Miller Band, Fleetwood Mac, Chicago, Rick Wakeman, Renaissance, Pink Floyd, and countless others cycling through my head.
Don't let me get started on the trashy novels that marked the decade's reading....